okay i'm awfully big-headed. and i apologize for that over-inflated ego. i guess some things are just meant to be kept to yourself, never mind if they always say you should share you joy with your friends and everything.

because when you're happy and high, there's definitely someone out there who'll be unhappy and low.

(to _______: i don't know whether you'll read this or not, but i'm not pissed off at you or anything. it's just that i'm really sorry for making you peeved at something which you wouldn't have been peeved at if i hadn't mentioned it, or at any rate, mentioned it that explicitly. i read your earlier post on your lj, and well, i must say that perhaps i'm like you too, wanting to be recognized, to be talked to, and to feel involved in everything. and well, sometimes i don't get that wish, hmm? and ahem, you're not a spoilt brat or anything. you're really brilliant and everything, it's just that not everyone recognizes you for all your worth, because half the time everyone's looking in the wrong direction. oh, am i supposed to read the stuff that's been struck out? because if i'm not, then sorry! xD)

i guess i need to learn a lot more tact, a lot more humility and everything. even though in my reflections, i said the 8 weeks were a start for me, they definitely weren't enough. i still have a long way to go.

{hmm i wish people would also really open up and tell me what my weaknesses are, because although i recognize that i'm flawed like everyone else, i may not exactly know what my flaws are. i have an idea, but i'm not 100% sure. oh, let's do the thing wanhui did last time: go post whatever you think of me on the tagboard, do it anonymously if you want. just make it sincere and true, and i'll take it seriously. i promise!(:}

and now, random deviations! (: {by the way, you can see i have really turbulent moodswings, haha!}

i miss rgp so, so much. (charmaine should know, i almost went into spasms of joy when i was there, looking at the teachers' day celebrations and all. sorry dear, if i irritated you tremendously!) i don't care if our first performance was a total flop, that we weren't really prepared and that kind of thing. i think what mattered most was that we still felt a sense of attachment to rgp, that we still love it so much to want to come back to it. (but of course, if we should put up anything again, we'll make sure we look less of fools! for one, we'll request at least one mike when we're singing! xD)

oh, i miss the teachers too. they were really nice, to put down whatever they were doing to entertain us for almost half an hour, to talk to us, to listen to our complaints about (...). it's good to know that somewhere in this world, there are still people who are willing to put down their jobs for a moment to listen to you. (or perhaps, that was because they could afford to, considering that it was the last day of school!)

thank you truckloads, ms j.phua, ms f.tan (or mrs f.chin!), mdm ang! (: thank you for remembering us, for sharing such wonderful times with us. and of course, thank you for passing to us all your knowledge and your enthusiasm for knowledge! (: {of course, there are rg teachers i want to thank, like ms m.seah, ms m.ong, mrs d.fahy, mrs e.mohd and mdm rozanah! the other teachers are also really nice, but i'd say that these are the ones who have truly made an impact on my life.)

i think i'm awfully incoherent at times, haha.

or zongmin, in english, chinese or - okay, not really otherwise.

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tripscience/lit♥ + mep, crab! (:
RGSChoir♥: sop2/alto1 + appassionata!
RGSPB-fior, batch of 'o9! (:
waddlian :D
CAPper'o7!
OBS}hillary!♥
team rgs/nsc08! (:
RGS-ICYL08: FIXcomm!♥
wycf08, satb choir! :D
ISYF@SG09!♥

lives, writes, sings, plays the piano, and attempts to sound intellectual at times (conclusion: fails rather miserably).

loves music (almost strictly classical, hurhur & inclusive of faziolis!), literature (& also the sciences - no they are not in conflict), making hopelessly lame puns, laughter, white/milk chocolate, cheesecake, the world & the people in it. list not exhaustive, by the way.

wants the world to be filled with peace, joy and love, and also wants (perhaps a little more selfishly) to be happy, plus lead a life of purpose. that would be more than enough. (:

oh, and she likes embarking on her own 'free hugs!' campaigns after exams and the like; not really sure why. D: (at any rate, you can tell that she's random enough.)

amanda g.
amanda y.
baozhing
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brenda s.
chanel
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darrell
deborah l.
deborah z.
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siyi
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suetping
tienli
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wanjiun
weite
xinyuan
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yinleng
yujia
zeslene

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very plain, she knows; but this is probably herself in its entirety - nothing more than a compilation of perhaps-boring-to-you little things (and the occasional Important Event), but also nothing less than all the brilliant memories which constitutes her life, and perhaps yours.

also interpreted as an inability to express with other things but words (nothing more, nothing less!), although even words sometimes won't do enough. but she does like orange.

v2.0 (230208): maybe solid grey isn't that fantastic after all. but wordy is good, all the same. she's weird, she knows.

ver. i-pretend-that-it-is-3.0-when-i-know-it-is-not (070608): i am boring, take that. (:

v4.0 (200908): got bored, so cut down on the quasi-fanciful stuff even more. perfectly plain now, though somehow the background still doesn't work on safari / google chrome. ):